Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Frustrating

Today, I am so frustrated. I haven't felt like this in awhile, but I am extremely frustrated at the progress that my students have made in a year. Forget academic learning and just consider behavior. They were rude, disrespectful, disengaged and all over the place today. We had to dismiss more students today than I can remember doing in a long time.

I just wish they could come to school, put a smile on their face, do what they are asked of, and we could all have a good time. I understand we are doing projects in each class BUT that doesn't mean it is time to mis-behave and dis-respect not only me but other students.
*I also think it is time for summer break and I am getting a bit more fed up than in the past when a student acts out-my patience is running thin.*
But, I shouldn't have to ask you anymore to sit in your seat. It's June 2nd and you are 17.5 years old.

On top of all the day had to present, a former SDC student who is now in resource and is graduating this year has the 2nd highest GPA from all schools on our campus and should be speaking at graduation. But, due to the fact that she had SDC classes for 3 years, she will not get to speak at graduation but at our awards assembly. To me, it is extremely unfair and a slap in the face. Do SDC classes and my teaching "not count"? I didn't speak up at the staff meeting, but instead walked straight to my room and shed a few tears.

I wanted to tell everyone:
  • Why do I even bother to teach if SDC classes "don't count"?
  • This student has worked extremely hard to get a 4.0 AND succeed outside of the SDC environment in her senior year.
  • It would be GREAT for ALL students to see a student who received special education services at the podium of graduation.
But, alas, I shut my mouth. I am still thinking about approaching the administration at a later date when I am more calm. But, for now, special education seems to be the step-child at my school-I realize as do my students.

1 comment:

Leslie Scoby said...

Hi Katherine- yes, you sound frustrated. But believe me, all teachers feel that way at times. Even "regular" students like I have can at times make me feel so disappointed. But when you step away at the end of the year, those memories will fade and the good times will stand out.
YOU are making a difference in the lives of these students. Yes, it might not be fair that the girl with the 4.0 didn't get the recognition she deserves, but that doesn't negate the good lessons and the knowledge she gained while pursuing the grade average. I would say something- you need to stand up for your students, but realize it might not change anything. Remember the big picture- the impact on lives- the example you have set. YOU DO MATTER- WHAT YOU HAVE DONE IS ETERNAL- FEW OTHERS HAVE CARED AS MUCH AS YOU HAVE. Hang in there and keep your head up. You have made it one year. The hardest teaching year of your life. It will get better and you are making a difference. Leslie PS- are you going to the We the People workshop?